Sunday, November 28
::|[[ Baby i love u and I'll nv let u go But if I haf to, girl I tink tat u shld noe All e love we've made will nv be erased and I promise u tat u will nv be replaced (x2) I love u, yes I do I'll be wif u as long as u wan me to until the end of time...
From the day I met u I knew we'd be together and nw I noe I wanna be wif u forever I wanna marry u and I wanna haf ur kids Tinkin nv compare to the feelings of ur kisses I can say I'm truly happy to tis day U make me tink tat I could live my life lyk tis everyday...
Dere's nv been a doubt in my mind Tat I regret ever habing u by my side But if the day cum tat I haf to let u go I tink dere's sumting I shld probably let u noe...
Tat everyday tat I spend wif u I will miss u cuz I'm happi tat I had u at all... ]]::
niCe sOnG huRx..saW iT aT jiNg weN's fReNsTeR paGe de..tHeN foUnd beRi feRmiLaR..cUz sHiYa saNg oNce beFoRe maRx..sO beRi feRmiLaR loRx..siaNx..nW 1.30++ lo..i sTiLL aWaKe..duN feeL lyK sLpiNg leHx..bUt aBit btH le..sTiLL pLaN saY tmL gO bUs tHeN sLp..haIz..bUt seeMs taT i btH le woRx..*yaWnx* iF i sLp nw..aLsO duNnO caN waKe uP aT 6.45 aNoT..haIz..heaDaChe aGaIn le..haIz..btH..maYbe gO geT sUm reSt loRx..tHeN tHe reSt gO bUs tHeN sLp..gD iDea huRx? haHa..loLx..oKie le laRx..i waNna gO sLp lo..tHeN haB eNeRgY tO coNtiNue tmL's joUrnEy..cOoL huRx? haHa..loLx..tiS tiMe..goInG iN foR..6-7 daYs leHx..goNna miSs eVeRy oNe heRe..aNd i'M goNna sPeNt mUa hoLidaYs iNsiDe buYiNg tHiNgs aNd eaTiNg!! yeaH..i loVe it sIa..*cHaK* sUre pUt oN weIgHt de..nItE tiMe mUz dO siT uP..loLx..haHa..maYbe tOo tiReD tO dO sIt uPs le baHx..waNna tiRe mI? =P haIz..duN pLaY lo..waNna sLp lo..doNg beI dIaO..haHahaZ..=) nItE nItEx..=) swEeT dReaMs woRx..*mUaCks* miSs aLL oF u~
From the day I met u I knew we'd be together and nw I noe I wanna be wif u forever I wanna marry u and I wanna haf ur kids Tinkin nv compare to the feelings of ur kisses I can say I'm truly happy to tis day U make me tink tat I could live my life lyk tis everyday...
Dere's nv been a doubt in my mind Tat I regret ever habing u by my side But if the day cum tat I haf to let u go I tink dere's sumting I shld probably let u noe...
Tat everyday tat I spend wif u I will miss u cuz I'm happi tat I had u at all... ]]::
niCe sOnG huRx..saW iT aT jiNg weN's fReNsTeR paGe de..tHeN foUnd beRi feRmiLaR..cUz sHiYa saNg oNce beFoRe maRx..sO beRi feRmiLaR loRx..siaNx..nW 1.30++ lo..i sTiLL aWaKe..duN feeL lyK sLpiNg leHx..bUt aBit btH le..sTiLL pLaN saY tmL gO bUs tHeN sLp..haIz..bUt seeMs taT i btH le woRx..*yaWnx* iF i sLp nw..aLsO duNnO caN waKe uP aT 6.45 aNoT..haIz..heaDaChe aGaIn le..haIz..btH..maYbe gO geT sUm reSt loRx..tHeN tHe reSt gO bUs tHeN sLp..gD iDea huRx? haHa..loLx..oKie le laRx..i waNna gO sLp lo..tHeN haB eNeRgY tO coNtiNue tmL's joUrnEy..cOoL huRx? haHa..loLx..tiS tiMe..goInG iN foR..6-7 daYs leHx..goNna miSs eVeRy oNe heRe..aNd i'M goNna sPeNt mUa hoLidaYs iNsiDe buYiNg tHiNgs aNd eaTiNg!! yeaH..i loVe it sIa..*cHaK* sUre pUt oN weIgHt de..nItE tiMe mUz dO siT uP..loLx..haHa..maYbe tOo tiReD tO dO sIt uPs le baHx..waNna tiRe mI? =P haIz..duN pLaY lo..waNna sLp lo..doNg beI dIaO..haHahaZ..=) nItE nItEx..=) swEeT dReaMs woRx..*mUaCks* miSs aLL oF u~
what we could have been, 11/28/2004 01:27:00 AM.
Friday, November 26
haiz..feel lyk typing..but duno wot to type..i'm in a mess nw..juz confused..lotx and lotx of things bugged onto mua brain..juz feeling more and more tired..its oni 12.43 and i'm tired..haiz..lousy mi..maybe cuz i'm abit down wif flu..haiz..feel lyk saying lots of things out..but duno y..i juz duno wot i wanna sae..juz alot of matters in mua heart..sqeezing mua heart till its in pain nw..but the pain did nt stop..it continued cuz words r still tied onto mua heart...juz duno y..cannot sae anithing out..unable to..i forced mua self..but duno wot to sae..even whn i'm staring into air..thinking wot am i suppose to sae..i still cannot find mua answer..lyk alot of things to sae lehx..summore is important things..i'm going to burst out..but still duno wot i suppose to sae..wot i feel lyk saying..haiz..beri beri blur nw..
room is in dark..oni the computer is alive as the oni source of light is coming out frm it..haha..haiz..cannot make mua self luff..juz feeling uneasy..cuz i'm eager to sae things out..but duno wot thing lehx..i keep on tinking..keep thinking..but nth came out of mua mouth..its the same feeling lyk..ermx..lyk some one wanna shout out..but unable to shout..lyk mute lyk tat..haiz..juz feel lyk making mua self drunk again..but..abit sore throat le..betta dun drink..later eddy kor kp mi again..haiz..feel lyk hugging sumthing nw..try hugging mua pillow le..but..tat feeling is nt there..ermx..lyk abit too small..lyk abit too soft..abit too short..haiz..i need a guy..a guy hu can let mi hug tight tight lyk...haiz..nth..juz pretend i've nv said it b4..haiz..dun wanna sae le larx..dun wanna force mua self to cry..haiz..i hab to stop mua tears..dun wan it fall down mua cheeks again lyk last nite..haiz..gD niTex..=(
room is in dark..oni the computer is alive as the oni source of light is coming out frm it..haha..haiz..cannot make mua self luff..juz feeling uneasy..cuz i'm eager to sae things out..but duno wot thing lehx..i keep on tinking..keep thinking..but nth came out of mua mouth..its the same feeling lyk..ermx..lyk some one wanna shout out..but unable to shout..lyk mute lyk tat..haiz..juz feel lyk making mua self drunk again..but..abit sore throat le..betta dun drink..later eddy kor kp mi again..haiz..feel lyk hugging sumthing nw..try hugging mua pillow le..but..tat feeling is nt there..ermx..lyk abit too small..lyk abit too soft..abit too short..haiz..i need a guy..a guy hu can let mi hug tight tight lyk...haiz..nth..juz pretend i've nv said it b4..haiz..dun wanna sae le larx..dun wanna force mua self to cry..haiz..i hab to stop mua tears..dun wan it fall down mua cheeks again lyk last nite..haiz..gD niTex..=(
what we could have been, 11/26/2004 01:32:00 AM.
Saturday, November 20
i'm tired..tired of those quarrelling..tired of those back stabbing..tired of those conflicts..tired of argue-ing..tired of anithing..i juz need a rest..a rest tat could bring mi out of tis world...out of mua mind..and most important..out of mua lil heart..
i juz dun wanna tink..no more things could gib mua brain a headache..juz no more..i'm too tired to tink..too tired to type..eyes are getting smaller..and soon both was close shut..i juz wished mua lil eyes could close forever..so tat i hab the rights nt to face the world..the scary world..
the world is changing..everyone is also changing..everyone to mi is wearing a mask..i'm tired of those back stabbing..i'm reali tired..could u juz free mi? i need to b alone..in a lil corner where i could hug mua legs to keep mi warm..i could trust no one except mua self now..but..it seems tat mua self cannot take it animore..i will break down anitime..ani moment..
the world is moving every moment..i wished i could pop out of da world..then kicked it to other places..leaving mi alone in space..wif stars and planets around mi...juz imagine..i could hear mua own heart beat..and its decreasing..slowly and slowly..till it stop. and i juz lie there stiffly..coldly..sadly..alone.
i'm looking towards a negetive way..a dark underpass..a long way to go..i'm afraid i could not make it..could nt walk thru..i'm confused..i'm bored..mostly..i'm tired..haiz..eyes reali closing slowly as time pass min by min..leaving mi in daze and lonelyness..haiz..
i'm reali tired..
i juz dun wanna tink..no more things could gib mua brain a headache..juz no more..i'm too tired to tink..too tired to type..eyes are getting smaller..and soon both was close shut..i juz wished mua lil eyes could close forever..so tat i hab the rights nt to face the world..the scary world..
the world is changing..everyone is also changing..everyone to mi is wearing a mask..i'm tired of those back stabbing..i'm reali tired..could u juz free mi? i need to b alone..in a lil corner where i could hug mua legs to keep mi warm..i could trust no one except mua self now..but..it seems tat mua self cannot take it animore..i will break down anitime..ani moment..
the world is moving every moment..i wished i could pop out of da world..then kicked it to other places..leaving mi alone in space..wif stars and planets around mi...juz imagine..i could hear mua own heart beat..and its decreasing..slowly and slowly..till it stop. and i juz lie there stiffly..coldly..sadly..alone.
i'm looking towards a negetive way..a dark underpass..a long way to go..i'm afraid i could not make it..could nt walk thru..i'm confused..i'm bored..mostly..i'm tired..haiz..eyes reali closing slowly as time pass min by min..leaving mi in daze and lonelyness..haiz..
i'm reali tired..
what we could have been, 11/20/2004 12:07:00 AM.
Friday, November 19
wHoOhO~ jUz woKe uP fRm mUa liL sLp..sTiLL aBit tiReD tHoU..haIz..caMe bacK @ 11 yeSteRdaY nItE..daDdy bRougHt mI baCk fRm dA cHaLeT..reNe, vivIeN aNd jaMiN jiE bRougHt mI oUt..tHeY weRe woRriEd woT..sCaRed i kaNna kiDnaPpeD..haHa..=) aNiwaY..tHaNx maN..
dA cHaLeT wAs fuN eXcePt sUm tHiNgs wHicH soMe hOw sPoiL mOods oF loTx oF ppL...oF cUz..sUm cOnfLicTs waS pRoduCeD..haIz..duN waNna toK aBt iT le laRx..loNg sTorY de neHx..
dA cHeLet waS oRgaNise bY dReY..wuN liNg..aNd aH peNg..jUz foR 2/2 nIa..bUt tuRn oUt..wiNgs heLpeD oUt iN loTx oF tHiNgs..tHaNx tO aUdreY's maMi..tHe cHaLeT waS fRee..haHa..aLL wE haB tO paY iS jUz dA fOod..bUt..dA foOd caUse aH peNg..reNe..sHiyA...aNd mI tO bE bRoKe..toTaL wE paY abt 80++ eXtRa..haBeN cLaiM fRm dA cLaSs..doUbt tHeY wOuLd paY..haIz..yeSteRdaY nItE dE cHaLeT shLd b dA beSt le baHx..cUz wE goT cHicKeN wiNg..cuCumbeR..sWeeT pOtaTo..toFu fiSh caKe..cRaB sTicK..hoT doG..cHicKeN meAt..weD niTe de bbQ oNi haB cHicKeN wiNg..hoT dOg..nUggEts..oTaH..haIz..sIaNx hoRx? tHuR nIte de bbQ iS cUz reNe, sHiya, mI aNd tIoNg haN gO wHitE saNds bUy de..sO eXpeNsiVe sIa..42 doLLaRs pLus pLus leHx..
wE weNt bowLiNg oN weD moRniNg aNd tHuR nItE..sO fuN sIa..i gT qUiTe hiGh sCoRe neHz..neXt tiMe caN gO wiF maMi aNd daDdy..aSk tHeM tO bRiNg mI gO..haHa.. wE aLsO weNt sWimmiNg foR tHe 2 daYs..sWiM foR aBt...3 tiMes peR daY..sHioK aRhx!! tHeN nW sO taN..haHa..daRkiE daRkiE~
dA cHaLeT wAs fuN eXcePt sUm tHiNgs wHicH soMe hOw sPoiL mOods oF loTx oF ppL...oF cUz..sUm cOnfLicTs waS pRoduCeD..haIz..duN waNna toK aBt iT le laRx..loNg sTorY de neHx..
dA cHeLet waS oRgaNise bY dReY..wuN liNg..aNd aH peNg..jUz foR 2/2 nIa..bUt tuRn oUt..wiNgs heLpeD oUt iN loTx oF tHiNgs..tHaNx tO aUdreY's maMi..tHe cHaLeT waS fRee..haHa..aLL wE haB tO paY iS jUz dA fOod..bUt..dA foOd caUse aH peNg..reNe..sHiyA...aNd mI tO bE bRoKe..toTaL wE paY abt 80++ eXtRa..haBeN cLaiM fRm dA cLaSs..doUbt tHeY wOuLd paY..haIz..yeSteRdaY nItE dE cHaLeT shLd b dA beSt le baHx..cUz wE goT cHicKeN wiNg..cuCumbeR..sWeeT pOtaTo..toFu fiSh caKe..cRaB sTicK..hoT doG..cHicKeN meAt..weD niTe de bbQ oNi haB cHicKeN wiNg..hoT dOg..nUggEts..oTaH..haIz..sIaNx hoRx? tHuR nIte de bbQ iS cUz reNe, sHiya, mI aNd tIoNg haN gO wHitE saNds bUy de..sO eXpeNsiVe sIa..42 doLLaRs pLus pLus leHx..
wE weNt bowLiNg oN weD moRniNg aNd tHuR nItE..sO fuN sIa..i gT qUiTe hiGh sCoRe neHz..neXt tiMe caN gO wiF maMi aNd daDdy..aSk tHeM tO bRiNg mI gO..haHa.. wE aLsO weNt sWimmiNg foR tHe 2 daYs..sWiM foR aBt...3 tiMes peR daY..sHioK aRhx!! tHeN nW sO taN..haHa..daRkiE daRkiE~
what we could have been, 11/19/2004 01:23:00 PM.
